A year ago today I officially stopped lurking and I created this journal. To celebrate I'm going to talk a little bit about some of the things I love and cherish about LJ and fandom.
When I started flirting with fandom I had no intention of ever writing fic. I'm one of those people who has such high standards that I often don't do things because I know I'll never be able to meet those standards. But thank fuck I DID start writing because although I'm not, like, a great author and I honestly do recognise my limits, it's been completely life changing finding something that I'm not only talented at but that I enjoy more than most everything else I've ever done. I mean, really, writing good erotica is an art, and while my vocabulary is way too small and I'm way too ignorant about most things to ever attempt a novel, AT LEAST I CAN WRITE HOT PORN. \o/
Discovering this talent at the age I'm at is a curious one. I'm considering telling my mother when I see her in September, just because it would be nice for her to know that I do SOMETHING other than getting drunk and that some people even appreciate what I do.
What the hell is my obsession with anal sex all about? I suspect it's becaue it's SO AWESOME. I did a bit of writing last night and it shocked even me the amount of buttfucking I've managed to include in the story so far. I really do love it. It's the cornerstone of all good porn. The anal is like a love story in itself: cock meets ass, moves in and they live happily ever after.
And because this is my journal, I simply have to include a poll in my anniversary post:
Which is hotter?
I love good meta and deep, thoughtful posts as much as the next girl, but let's not pretend we're not all amazingly shallow people as well, please. The shameless appreciation of pretty people is one of the things that brings such a diverse mix of people together and it feeds itself too. I don't think I ever thought much about beautiful naked men before fandom. But you should see the inside of my head NOW:
*Hi Clark Kent! Why do you never wear clothes and why do you ALWAYS have an erection? Hi Lex Luthor! Why are you so damn kinky! And where the hell are YOUR clothes?!*
The hotass brought us together and it'll keep us together. We should never forget that.
But actually, it's not the fic or the hotass that keeps me here. It's you guys. I remember what it felt like to lurk. How intimidating fandom seemed. All these people who knew each other and who *loved* each other, and it wasn't just about internet friendships. Some people had found their best friends through fandom. I never ever imagined that I would experience that. I never imagined that I would meet people who would become important to me and who *I* would love.
I don't think I can do justice to how much this LJ means to me with words. The pleasure it gives me on a daily basis, the knowledge that I always have a place to go where I will be moved and entertained, turned on and sometimes shocked. A place where I can contribute something that I feel is worthwhile. A place where people care about me and which is CHOC FULL of people I care about too.
A year in and it's been one of the most fantastic years ever. I just know the next will be full of wonder and magic and friendship and porn and joy and laughter and clex and I'll be meeting more of you in person and people I haven't even met yet are going to come into my life and change it for the better.
Thank you everyone, for reading my blog, for enjoying my porn, for being my friend. I don't know what I'd do without you.